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7/30/2013

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Lord, speak to us that we may speak in living echoes of your tone; As you have sought, so let us seek your erring children lost and lone. Give us the strength to n'ere retreat and greater still healing grace to speak. Amen.

     How far we have come in the journey of civil rights during my lifetime; and not nearly far enough. I was born in 1953. Within a eight years of my birth WW2 ended in August of 1945. At the start of WW2 blacks and whites served in segregated units and companies. In 1948 Harry Truman issued orders eliminating any remaining segregation within the armed forces. In 1947 Branch Rickey brought up Jackie Robinson from the minor league team in Montreal to become the first black to play in major League Baseball.

     Last evening I watched "42" the most recent telling of the story of Jackie Robinson and that summer of 1947. It is a story of courage, pain, suffering and struggles and realities of the changing world into which I was born. It is the story of one man with a vision and one man with a tremendous heart and a nation that was watching often with fear and anger and shock. It, literally, hurt to watch the representation of the treatment of Robinson. More yet I pitied and felt sick for those who inflicted that pain and felt free and self-justified in doing so.

     It was years before I realized how close these events were to my birth and my childhood. I grew up in a family in Connecticut that was incredibly color blind. I cannot remember my mother or my father or either of my sets of grandparents ever, ever saying anything disparaging of a person of color. My father and then my brothers and I went to the same unintentionally integrated grade school from kindergarten through 6th grade. It was a school we never thought of as integrated. It was just our neighborhood school. My playmates were black and white and I can't say I ever really noticed. We were all just kids playing, living and studying together.

     I remember 
as an older teen learning  about experiences my black friends or their families had gone through. I never knew. It was something that had never been spoken.

     The civil rights movement of the 50s and 60s was the next major step forward in the struggle of race relations in my world. In my naiveté the kids from my grade school were only my friends, "just like me," but that I discovered was a lie because of the hate some people directed towards them. The verbal and sometimes physical attacks they had on occasion endured were surreal to my ears.

     I remember the evening news with hoses turned on the marchers in in Alabama. I remember the violence aimed at people simply standing and walking, blacks and whites arms linked together. I remember the stories of churches being bombed and children being killed. I remember the soaring rhetoric of speakers encouraging faithfulness to Christ. And I remember being stunned when I realized that people for and against segregation both used the Bible to justify their positions. I remember being confused and angry that people like my friends had to be afraid for their lives in my country and that others justified that in the name of Christ. I am sure all of this led to my sense of call and desire to speak eloquently exhorting and encouraging people forward in the kingdom of God where every person is someone important enough that Christ died for him or her. 

     Thanks be to God, I can still be naive even as cynicism has grown in me with the passing decades. I thought we had left all those days behind us. I wanted to believe that we had come as a majority in our country to believe people should be treated justly and have equal opportunities to succeed.

    I now live in a world that increasingly angers me day by day. I see people retreating from those beliefs of justice, freedom, and opportunity for all because life is at the moment very hard for so many. I see people filled with cynicism to the point of hopelessness, fear, and anger.

    Apparently the Supreme Court of the United States is, also, naive believing that protections like the Voting Rights Act are no longer necessary. For decades and more people trying to expand the opportunities of U S citizens to vote have been attacked with each passing election. Even groups like the League of Women Voters find themselves unable to meet new stringent registration rules. Numerous politicians and supporters have sought to deny as many as possible "minorities" from voting. These attacks are every bit as heinous as the poll taxes of the 40s, 50s, and 60s. Less than two months following the majority opinion of SCOTUS saying parts of the Voting Rights Act were no longer needed bills have been forwarded and passed almost overnight in North Carolina and Texas. Oh, yes, they are naive or worse.

     As we become a more diverse nation every day there are many who feel their power slipping away from them. They see black and Hispanic voters as a threat to "their" vision of America and the opportunities for "their" children and grandchildren to enjoy the success they had as our economy struggles. In fear they desire to remain an artificial majority by controlling who votes and to insure that that voting pool looks and thinks like them. If your ideas can't win, change who gets to vote. It is a self-centered narcissistic view of politics and the world. It is sin. It is evil, plain and simple.

     I know what to do with sin. I have been trained and blessed with knowledge of how to deal with sin. First, one speaks about it honestly. One speaks, honestly, revealing it for what it is. It is disobedience to God's will. This fear and anger is rejecting God's way. And once we have exposed the sin we excise it by bringing God's grace to bear on it. We speak God's Word and Spirit into the situation. We remember those who have had to speak in the face of evil before us. and who needed to proclaim hope in God's favor.

Isaiah 61:
1 The spirit of the Lord God is upon me, because the Lord has anointed me;
     he has sent me to bring good news to the oppressed, to bind up the brokenhearted,
     to proclaim liberty to the captives, and release to the prisoners;
2 to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor, and the day of vengeance of our God;
     to comfort all who mourn;
3 to provide for those who mourn in Zion— to give them a garland instead of ashes,
     the oil of gladness instead of mourning, the mantle of praise instead of a faint spirit.

     Jackie Robinson had amazing strength to refusing to yield to hate, maybe stronger than we can imagine carrying himself with grace as the world changed.






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Now That Is Offensive

7/28/2013

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“The gospel cannot be truly preached without offense and tumult.” 
― Martin Luther
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All That I Am Is Yours

7/22/2013

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Lord Jesus Christ, you offered your life for me upon the cross, in the waters of baptism I was reborn in you, today I live as your body in the world set free to pour out my life for others. Give me your strength, generosity, and grace that I may pour out my life for all your children. Amen. 

     Today I encountered an amazing story that fully embodies the words of Paul when he wrote in Romans 14: "If we live, we live to the Lord, and if we die, we die to the Lord; so then, whether we live or whether we die, we are the Lord’s."

    The story is one that captures and expresses the teaching of Paul concerning our life and our death as Christians in very real terms. It embodies what Paul is saying about how our lives are radically secure in Jesus Christ and we no longer need fear death. Because of this we are radically reoriented to live as Christ body in the world.
 
   The story I found may or may not involve Christians. I am sure that it involves many who are not Christians. It is a story about courage and the willingness to lay ones life down for one's neighbors. It is a generosity of self at great risk to one's life and health. 

    More than 200 pensioners of the Skilled Veterans Corp in Japan have volunteered for hazardous duty at the Fukushima nuclear plant so that young Japanese workers do not have to risk exposure to the excessively high radiation at the reactors. These are retired engineers and professionals who say that they and not the young should be facing these dangers. They are literally laying down their lives in the protection of others.

    In Paul's world to be a Christian was something of great risk. In our world today there are still places where being known as a Christian is a great risk of harm and life. In the comfort of my Pennsylvania community not so much. 

    Does this mean I must go out of my way to find places where my life is at risk for my faith? No. What it does mean is that I should be constantly aware of how I may pour out my life for others. God blesses me with eternal life to set me free to serve and to accept the cost of that service. Being a Christian frees one to serve among the ill risking exposure to harm. It is to see Florence Nightengale transformed into God's presence. Being a Christian means risking bold generosity to assist and provide for those who struggle to find basic sustenance. It is to see Anjezë Gonxhe Bojaxhiu transformed in Christ becoming Mother Teresa.  Being a Christian is to see Saul transformed to Paul around us every day when someone, maybe even ourselves, takes up the cost of serving because we see what must be done whatever the cost personally. Being a Christian is to understand that what God has placed in our lives is not there for us to cling to but rather to be managed and used to touch others with God's presence. God blesses me to be a blessing, just like Abraham.

    I will be the first to confess that I am not very good at living that life of Christ consistently. There have been moments when I have but they are too few and too brief.  But I constantly hear God's story calling me forward to be more bold and to risk real living in Christ reminding me that death has been conquered.  Reminding me I have been set free by baptism into Christ not for self indulgence and whatever I WANT to do but rather what I in grace MUST RISK and do for my neighbor. It is terrifying grace and freedom. 


    May God bless and keep the members of the Skilled Veterans Corp safe in their labor at the Fukushima reactors. "Yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death I shall fear no evil." 



  


           



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Most Dangerous Trial

7/22/2013

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“This is the most dangerous trial of all, when there is no trial and every thing goes well; for then a man is tempted to forget God, to become too bold and to misuse times of prosperity.” 
― Martin Luther
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Stand Your Ground

7/20/2013

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Holy God, your son could have called legions of angels to his aid but instead submitted freely to those who sought his destruction. Grant us courage as your people who have died in the waters of baptism to work for the safety of all your children. Teach us to live your story.  Amen.

    George Zimmerman has been found not guilty. He is not innocent, neither am I. All fall short of the glory of God. Thank you, St. Paul.

    During the last few days the media circus has been whipped into a frenzy, individuals are being polarized. Some can't believe the verdict and consider it to be only about race. Others are celebrating George Zimmerman as a hero and a symbol of the importance of the Stand Your Ground law. Ted Nugent is court jesture of gun rights prancing about as if something good happened. 

    Nothing good has happened. It is tragedy all around. Both Trayvon Martin and George Zimmerman are victims of an event that never had to happen. One life is ended and another forever changed.

    George Zimmerman took the life of Trayvon Martin. It didn't have to be that way. George Zimmerman was breaking the rules of Neighborhood Watch because he was carrying a gun. He apparently had the right to own and carry a gun under Florida law. He freely forfeited that right as a member of Neighborhood Watch under their rules. It was his choice nobody compelled him to be a member of Neighborhood Watch. He chose to ignore the rules. George Zimmerman could have stayed in the car and listened when told by 911 they didn't need him to follow Martin. George Zimmerman did not listen. This is evidence that George Zimmerman did not completely respect the rules or the authority of the community in which he lived. He was a scofflaw. George Zimmerman is not innocent. Neither am I.

    Trayvon Martin had some history of marijauna use. He was a B+/A- student according to his English teacher.  He had been suspended from school three times. There had been a question about some jewelry found in his possession but no charges were brought and he had no record. Still, he was not innocent, neither am I. 

    Is being innocent the issue, however? Beyond the legal system are there any other options that might have been a more effective solution for the circumstances in which Trayvon Martin and George Zimmerman found themselves engaged.

    Last Sunday we heard the story of the Good Samaritan once again. How might have the story of Trayvon Martin and George Zimmerman been different if the script of the Good Samaritan been running in both their hearts? What might have been different if instead of perceiving Trayvon Martin as a "problem" from the start George Zimmerman had seen Trayvon as someone he could help by offering aid. What might have been different if Trayvon had seen Zimmerman not as a threat but as the possibility of one offering assistance like the Samaritan. 

    In our country we, blacks and whites, still struggle with the racial scripts we have running in our heads. Often we make assumptions about others because of those scripts. "Male black teens are 'trouble.' "

     Many of our scripts are not racial. "Kids today are lazy." "People on welfare are lazy." "Rich people are selfish." "Gays have a hidden agenda." "Gays are promiscuous." "Christians are against science." On and on we have script after script running in our heads.  Few are true in whole or even  in part. None are innocent. Neither am I.

    What would happen if we allowed God's script to become ours, God's story to become our story. What if we all lived out our lives laying them down for others like Jesus and like the Good Samaritan. If we did we might be able to worry less about innocence and to rejoice in those who come to bring aid instead wondering is he or am I innocent. We are not innocent. Not one.

    Christ died for me so that I can give up pretentions about being innocent and just worry about how to live like a real neighbor so that everyone who watches my life will remember Christ's story. Maybe I should worry less about standing my ground than the story and script I am following.





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Saved from Ourselves

7/20/2013

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“This is the reason why our Theology is certain: because it seizes us from ourselves and places us outside ourselves.” 
― Martin Luther
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In Over Our Heads

7/14/2013

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Lord Jesus, teach us how to let go of our worries and concerns about life into your loving hands. Teach us to believe that with you in our lives we can face every challenge including the possibility of dying. Help us remember that trusting in the Father you did die on the cross conquering  sin and death for all times. Amen.
     
     Kayaking has become a popular pastime along the streams, creeks and rivers of PA. In many ways enjoying kayaking is a parallel to life. There are times where one can simply go with the flow and others when you must paddle like mad to avert real problems and dangers.
       
     Life is a constant stream of challenges. It is filled with a steady flow forward that sometimes can be growing turbulence, cascading rapids, or frustrating back eddys. Some people seem to navigate the challenges of life with relative ease and few disorienting life crises, others seem to become caught in every cross current and hydraulic on the stream.
       
     The disciples were familiar with the water and all the hazards and dangers that it could bring. While not the particular dangers of kayaking storms could blow up in minutes and easily threaten the small boats with which some disciples made their living. In Luke 8:24 we learn that the disciples feared for their lives in the midst of one storm. Meanwhile Jesus was asleep in the back of the boat. The terrified disciples wake Jesus and in Mark’s version the disciples accuse Jesus of not caring, “The disciples woke him and said to him,  "Teacher, don't you care if we drown?" Jesus response is, "Where is your faith?"
       
     Over the years people have asked me,“Where is Jesus?” “Doesn’t he care that I am struggling?” “What am I supposed to do?”
       
     In those moments I always remember the story above. The question is how do we apply it to those crises and moments in life? It is easy to cry out with the disciples and to accuse Jesus, to be angry with him because he isn’t fixing our situation but the truth is Jesus never promised us he about that. Instead Jesus focuses his gaze and his attention on the disciples and us and says, “Where is your faith?” Jesus understands the enduring solution isn’t in fixing the situation or changing the circumstances. The enduring solution is in us being changed. Jesus sleeps on the pillow in the back of the boat because he completely trusts the Father with everything in his life. Jesus knows whatever will be, will be OK as long as he is in the Father’s care. Ultimately, that meant that even death on the cross would be OK. As the Apostle Paul says, “Whether we live, or die, we are the Lord’s.”

    None of this means that life will be easy or that we won’t face the challenges including the life threatening rapids of life. Life is ever changing like the river. What it does mean is that we are not alone in the midst of anything, good times or tough times; we are always in Christ as the baptized children of God. The disciples may have had their doubts about the situation but they knew what to do even if they did it awkwardly.  They spoke to Jesus. They announced their fear and they sought Jesus’ help. Jesus was there for them. 

      Jesus is always there. He is always with us on that cushion in the back. As the psalmist writes, 
         “121: 5 The LORD watches over you-- the LORD is your shade at your right hand; 6 the sunwill not harm you by day, nor the moon by night. 7 The LORD will keep you from all harm-- he will watch over your life; 8 the LORD will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.” Jesus is always there talk to him on the river of life. 
       
     Talk to Jesus, tell him your fears. Listen to what he asks. “Where is your faith?”

       Keep your faith in Jesus; in life and death.


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All in the Family

7/13/2013

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“One learns more of Christ in being married and rearing children than in several lifetimes spent in study in a monastery.” 
― Martin Luther
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The Devil Got it Right

7/12/2013

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“So when the devil throws your sins in your face and declares that you deserve death and hell, tell him this: "I admit that I deserve death and hell, what of it? For I know One who suffered and made satisfaction on my behalf. His name is Jesus Christ, Son of God, and where He is there I shall be also!” 
― Martin Luther
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Speaking Christ into Life

7/10/2013

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Give me strength Almighty God to speak the presence of your Son into the lives of others. Help me not to see with the prejudice and presumptions of my own eyes but instead with Christ's eyes which seeing every sinner as someone needing love and salvation. And most of all always let me hear your voice wherever you reveal it. Amen.

    If I am really honest sometimes I just don't like people, certain people, not all people, not nearly most people but some people, really, just a few people. Most often those are people who make me feel uncomfortable. People who seem really different from me, people outside my comfort zone. I don't believe in judging a book by its cover but sometimes just seeing someone or hearing someone can just set me completely on edge. 

    Scripture is filled with stories of in groups and out groups, both the Old and New Testaments have such stories. Sometimes those stories completely castigate and reject those out groups even to the point of calling for their destruction as in the purge of the Canaanites from the Promised Land and other times the point of the whole story is raising up how someone, often Jesus or someone he spoke about in a parable, transcended above the cultural divisions between communities; i.e. Jew and Gentile, Jew and Samaritan. 

    One of my hobbies has been performance magic. Magic based in sleight of hand, covert actions, gaffs, gimmicks, and deception. I have attended numerous magic conventions and spent a fair amount of time with side show performers. I have for periods of time been friends and shared ideas and concepts for performance with well known individuals from that community. 

    The world of side show artists is filled with folks often heavily tattoed and pierced. For the uninitiated it is often off-putting and at times I still struggle with it but all in all I am far more comfortable with it today than twenty years+ ago. Still depending on the particular artwork and the amount of coverage I can be set back into old feelings of discomfort.

    What I have learned, however, is that inked or not inked people are people and whether they tell you their story across the landscape of their body art or with their voice, whether in the coffee shop or in a bar, or in the privacy of counseling their pains, their fears, their hopes, and their needs are all similar even if unique to each in their telling and expression. Even when their stories and the struggles of life are devastatingly different there is that human fear and brokenness that is in us all.  Beyond every stereotype there is a person.

    If I believe as I do and if you believe with me that Christ died on the cross for all and that all fall short of the glory of God then beyond my fear and beyond our fears we each must have something of Christ to speak into the life of every other person. Knowing what to speak begins in two places, in God's Word and in the life of the person across from us. It begins in studying scripture and listening to people.
    
    How tragic if I am too afraid to listen to that person because they make me uncomfortable or because I think they are too different. Worst of all, giving them a wide, wide berth I may never hear them speak as they speak Christ into my life. Reread that. I may never hear them speak Christ into my life, healing my fears and my brokenness.

    That would be tragic indeed because sinner that I am I always need to hear the voice of Jesus.
    

    
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    Pastor Bill Esborn

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